A Ticket Out

That video of Ethan's tumor is a pretty incredible sight to see. It takes a person's breath away.  Several people have told me that they have found themselves holding their breath, gripping the edge of their seats as they watched the miracle of the tumor being pulled out... "its' a miracle" everybody keeps saying.  A miracle right before our eyes.

Now don't get me wrong, the sight of Gandolf leaving the building is amazing.  But I have gotten to see a greater miracle, one that is even more breathtaking.  I have gotten the privilege to see a young boy show courage, love and peace of a man three times his age.  I have gotten to see a kid who had every right to be unhappy and angry, but instead choose to embrace the peace of his Father and to have an attitude of joy and compassion for the people around him. Now THAT is a miracle that has taken my breath away.

I read a blog today that talked about wanting to have a ticket out. The idea was that there are moments in a person's life where our heart shatters because of pain and fear.  The author contiutes to talk about how are hearts are like jars of clay and in those moments of shattering whatever we have put into those jars will come out.

"But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but NOT crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken: struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our morals bodies," 2 Corinthians 4:7-10

At the beginning of this journey, I prayed that God would take this challenge from us, that he would give us a ticket out.  People all over the world were joining us in praying for healing and I struggled because I didn't see that healing happen. E still had Cancer and I feared it would break my family.

Now, I am so thankful he didn't give a ticket out.

I never would have experienced this kind of healing that God has shown my family, and I would have missed out on seeing the greatest miracle that has come through Ethan and the attitude he has chosen to have.